Monday, March 24, 2008
faith
This was Good Friday
It's just wax from my candle.
There was a chance I was bored, but it is always a thereputic atmosphere, little flames burning in a breeze against the darkening sky, and you can't help but feel God closer than ever. It's enough, because the sermon's the same every year (that's how commemoration days usually backfire, they desensitize you), and the familiar faces only grow older.
Afterwards in bed in prayer, while taking my time to name all the miracles that I'm most thankful for, I realised it is in second chances and new beginnings. That's what Easter means to me, then.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
worth
Black Book Entry:
I caught 'I Love Huckabees' last night and I missed a large part of the start so its either that or it really is a confusing movie but, I was throughly confused and drawn to it at the same time. You know sometimes when you let your thoughts wander and delve deep, you start to question some of the constants in our lives and the pillars of our understanding of the universe, and suddenly everything sounds so alien? Yeah that's a cool feeling. I haven't figured out how that is cool in a money-making, life-supporting way, but who cares. Not everything is about that, right? I really don't know, actually. Sometimes when I'm back down on earth I really wish I could have stayed up in the clouds. Anyway, thoughts on existentialism keep my mind occupied.
To be continued with the subjects of stereotypes and de ja vus when I'm not so sleepy.
Monday, March 10, 2008
the highway song
I wanted to say, so much for writing
so much for dreams.
I wanted to say, I feel so lost
but I resent these sudden impositions.
I wanted to say, I don't want pity
because I deserve it
and I'll be hardest on myself for it.
I wanted to say, all I want is for someone to believe in me,
and he was there all along.
It's all I'll ever need.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
much like falling
? by glass-hero
Let's talk about irrationality
but don't you know me by now?
Irrational fears
(I'll calm yours and you'll calm mine)
Don't you know me by now.
Sometimes I not sure I know myself
If found, take care.
There might not be an identity for this lost cause.
endWhat I miss most:
long engaging conversations
moments to lose myself in
